no title just emotion

To the people who have walked away thank you
You have walked away because you cant handle the truth
I have lived with the truth every single day of my life.
for 32 years
and yes I haven't walked away

I cannot explain to you how it made me feel
all those thoughts of abandonment and isolation came back to me in droves.
because you blocked me
no longer wanted to be my friend, my mentor, my confidant.

You so called said you would stand by me
but at the site of a challenge you decided you couldn't not stand beside me no longer


I will never understand how people who advocate for mental illness
and help others with depression cannot stand beside someone who is really suffering
and planning to take her life with her own hand.


why couldn't you just be a positive force.

the hurt is beyond words. because all the abandonment thats happened to me previously has been uncovered.




so who's the winner...