appreciating the little things

Today my mood I hope to improve when i see the sunshine outside, put out my outside table and chairs, and sit there eating my mornings breakfast of porridge. The sun is bearing down on me but I don't mind the heat the sun all seems worthwhile, better than being cold, how I've been so many times this month passed. So I sit there the sun and the blue sky beckons on me, and I look up in wonder at how beautiful this day has turned out. I have appreciation for the sight i see and wonder why I cant see it with these clear eyes of amazement everyday. Why does my brain tell me that this world is nothing special when I see such a sight that makes me in awe of creation.

I don't know how to explain the changes I have in my mood and temperament one to the next, the extremes when I just want to be normal. But the sky and its beauty is something I CANT DENY. Even in the hardest of times those are the memories I take out of my treasure drove. They are the gems I capture with my eyes, why take a picture when you can take a lasting memory in your brain just by using mindfulness and being present to your surroundings. I find I remember it when I use my eyes like a camera. click.

I take the renewed energy I feel from the sun bearing down on me to use the opportunity to clean my surroundings inside with the door open letting in the light and the breeze. I sort out my jewellery, my possessions and my clothing, things that make me feel good when the day may not be such.

I also take time to put together my memory board with bits of jewellery and photos, things that mean something to me. My grandfathers picture goes on this board, he's passed away now but the memories of him live on. A photo of myself with  my cousins, and a photo of myself as a 12 year old girl standing beside my little brother. I wonder who that girl is in the picture. I wonder if i have grown from her naive ways..

I stand back and look at what I have created and am pleased.

I then realise there is more to be done, and theres more to be captured.