no parent of mine

How dare you treat me with distain
put me down with your words of poison,
what gives you the right to play with a persons feelings.

Yes I am a person
but Im a girl stuck inside a womans body
with feelings - as primative as they may be

Why does it make you feel better?
Does it make you feel bigger and stronger than I
to sit there on your high horse
and criticise my appearance, my looks

You tell me no man is going to want me
you tell me I shouldn't of been born
the nastiness is just too intense
and nobody gets to feel your rage your wrath
but your daughter

Your husband workships you
on the ground that you walk he walks too.
Suddenly its two against one

I ran to the shadows.
Hoping not to be targeted.
but you always find your entry point
and deliver a final blow.

Im learning ways to deal with the poison
I'm trying to surround myself with people who support
and strengthen me
but you are my closest parent
and the swords that you
put into me
create a overflow
and emotion
that i cannot digest or explain in words


For your parent
the one who gave birth to you
to have that much anger and resentment
and harm
and to betray their daughter


There are no words.
There is no feeling of  love

because hate has taken over!


Your words say more than anything whats in your heart,