when the heart says its broken

This week I have had a health scare that i did not expect.


My heart has been going on its on rhythm and doing a marathon, my heart beating twice what it should be. Its been diagnosed as Supra-ventricular tachycardia  (SVT)

So I have come face to face with the imperfections of my body and suddenly my heart is doing something very out of order.

Started on Thursday night 7Pm I was just sitting minding my own business and the most intense palpitations started, with chest [pain. and intense nausea, and dizziness. I knew this wasn't a normal bout of palpitations, after trying several ideas to get rid of it I ended up calling Health line after half an hour and it was still continuing, they in turn called the ambulance and the second they hooked me to the monitor they could tell by the numbers showing on the screen that something wasn't right. when a heart is doing 180 + well thats serious.  They said to me you are definitely going to hospital. I was taken to Re-suss and yep hooked up to monitors and ECG machine, and after several attempts of trying to stop the heart beating so fast with conventional means, I had to have medicine through a drip in my arm. This medicine made me feel very strange and it was like i was going unconscious really weird feeling.  Anyway eventually my heart was regulated, and then monitored by ED staff. I finally ended up going home at 3am in the morning.

I was told that it was probably just a one off and nothing to worry about. They couldn't give me a trigger that brought it on, but I live with extreme stress, anxiety, so that doesn't help.

Well two days later and I was in ED for the same thing my heart went up to 220 at one point. The same process in the emergency department took place which was really not fun.
Now I have been put on beta blockers medication to try and regulate the heart and stop it from beating too quickly.  Its my first day on the new drug and theres still a lot of work to do with my gp to get the dosage correct.

I can say that these experiences this week have left me feeling shaky, and uneasy.

Its a strange feeling coming into contact with your own mortality.

Its been exhausting on my body and mind to keep up with my fast heart rate.

and its difficult when you flick between wanting to live and then to die


Went and visited a friend of mine today and explained my experience. He said you need to take better care of yourself.
Your body is telling you to slow down, to sort out things that are unresolved.

You cant keep going on with all this stress, anxiety.

somethings going to give whether its your health or your spirit.

I hate to admit it but they are right, there is still a lot that i carry on my shoulders.
time to let it go.

I did not expect to have to deal with heart issues, in my 30's thats just crazy! but there again I am having to do this and you just have to suck it up.