Social media Poem

So i don't want to post on twitter
or facebook
I don't want to send a selfie
or even take one.
I don't want to be a part of your group
or your organisation too
Im struggling enough in life just to hold on
to living

I don't care about the latest fashions
or the trends on the catwalk
I really don't care that you lost your shoe

Im not wanting to hear your excuses
for not wanting to socialise
im sick of you blowing me  off
making me feel inadequate

Im not wanting to be a pain
im not fighting for attention
I'm definitely not seeking sympathy

know I'm just lonely and tired
of fighting an illness that you cannot see

I pray and I fight every single day of my life
so my family don't have to bury me in the ground
I pick up any self help books I can find
to make my day a little bit more liveable.

Your status updates.
Your show off displays
you act like your life is easy

just know true courage is living when you don't want to live no more

so don't hate me social networking bunch
for not posting a status or a tweet
I run out of things to say that you actually want to hear.
my life isn't as glamorous

and I'm tired of the blocking, and the ones who don't reply
just realise the mental stabbings hit just as deep as physical ones.

How can I get you to understand.
social media might be your life, but to me its a sideshow.
My reality requires strength to get through everyday.